Things haven't gotten much better. For the last ten days or so I've just sat around watching bad movies, or sleeping, and moaning when the cramps come around. I had already planned to take this past week off for leave, to rest and recover - I had no idea I'd need it as much as I have. Given other associated digestive issues I was advised to stick to a non-dairy low fiber diet until things resolve some more. It's the most boring food in the universe. I'm living off of english muffins, bananas, and mashed potatoes. I have been dreaming about a big cheesy brick of meat lasagna from Jack's in Malden and giant bowls of vanilla ice cream. I couldn't have any of my daughter's birthday cake last week (we saved some in the freezer for when I'm better). I did sneak a donut hole the other day. It was good. I couldn't tell if it made the cramps any worse.
On the bright side, I've found the ultimate fail-proof diet scheme: 5-6 weeks of radiation to your lower abdomen and you won't want to eat anything! I've lost 15 pounds in the last 2 weeks. I have no strength left. It's post-surgery all over again. I'm walking with my cane, all hunched over, can barely make it around the corner before I have to sit down, or end up doubled over waiting for a cramp to pass. My radiation oncologist said it would be a rough couple of weeks once treatments finished but I was not expecting this. And it started before it was even over!
Oh well. This too shall pass.
Radiation is no joke. It's cumulative and is far worse than one might expect. But it will pass... and you will feel better... but I do not like how shitty you are feeling right now. Nothing to do but let time pass, but please know I'm thinking of you all the time.
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